Seems like the past couple of months I have been everything but still. My life has changed in ways that I never would have planned two years ago. Law school is still law school and will not change regardless of what happens to me. There are responsibilities that I have been forced to give up and many nights that I still cannot not sleep. But even with the lethargy, crying, and pain, something my late grandmother said years ago pops into my head. Be still.
How do I do this? I don’t have a secured job after law school. I know where I would like to work but that’s not a guarantee at this point. Being able to even focus on school has been a struggle because of life. Doctors appointments, missed class, money that I need to fall out of the sky…so much movement. And yet, my grandmother pops into my head again. Be still.
She would always say this when there was a thunderstorm and I would get a little scared. “Be still while God is working.” This statement rings so true in my life right now. Having faith is going to be the key to me finishing law school, getting a job, and taking care of other responsibilities going on in my life. I have to be faithful enough to know that God is going to direct my path and continue to bless me like he has the past 23 years and 11 months of my life.
I have a mother and father that love me and a very supporting sister that would do anything for me. I have friends that are amazing and have supported me in ways I’m sure they don’t fully understand. And most of all I have the person that loves me more than I can ever love anyone else. The one who is always there for me and always protects and guides me. The one who I can depend on when I have no one else. I have my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
So I know this only tangentially touches on what my job search status looks like but I needed to have a small praise party. I haven’t been able to blog much but I will claim this: I WILL have a job. I WILL complete law school. I WILL do the things that I aspire to do in life.
Anything is possible…as long as I know when to be still.